Coral Rose Fullwood and homicide grief

Poor sweet innocent baby.

I feel as if I'm becoming numb to it all. Not desensitized but numb. My mind can't wrap itself around some of the things we are learning.

We've learned the her daddy watched child porn with one of her alleged murderers at the daddy's work.

Huh? He watched children being RAPED at work with the alleged murderer.

Huh?

Who are these people? And what is happening?

Coralrose lived in the same small town not far from where Denise and Nate were living when Denise was taken. At one time they thought the cases might be linked. People even speculated that because Denise was tiny and petite and was mistaken for a child by a witness, that possibly Michael King had something to do with Coralrose's murder.

Coralrose was taken from her home in the middle of the night. She was later found beaten, raped and strangled in a ditch not far from her house. The police confiscated 10 (ten) computers from the home and Mr Fullwood admitted having child porn on them. Huh? Who needs 10 computers in your home?

Who watches child porn and children being raped? Who are these people and how can we get rid of them?

And the poor mom and the poor siblings....... God bless them with much strength and courage to get through all this. I can't imagine their PAIN!

This makes me so angry. I'm just angry. Angry for Denise. Angry for Coralrose. Angry for Jessica Lunsford. Angry for little Haleigh Cummings. Angry for Caylee Anthony. Just ANGRY!

Has the world always been this way? Have little children always been preyed upon?

I'm so disgusted. These people that do this are scum. I mean scum.

You have to understand that there's a lot of rage in homicide grief. Lots of rage. When we first lost Denise I couldn't read these stories. I had enough rage in me that I didn't need anymore. Now that I'm farther along in my grief, I'm starting to not be so oblivious. I'm starting to read more about others. For the longest time I couldn't let in anymore pain.

I feel so angry right now that I'm not sure I can read about Coralrose any more.

I met a friend (I consider him a friend) in Wal-Mart today. He lost his daughter to his ex son-in-law. The ex son-in-law shot her. Then he shot his and her two babies. A whole family wiped out! Just wiped out!

I think of my anger and then I look at this man and I think "how does he bear it?????" How does he contain that anger? Lloyd, if you read this, I do hope you start blogging. I am more than willing to read what you have to say. There is so much I can learn from you and your family. {{{Love and peace, brother}}}

I gotta stop writing. I'm becoming agitated.

Through all this my heart just breaks. It breaks everyday. Everyday, every hour and every minute.

Please God, help make this senseless madness that is going on in the world now stop.

A Rant: Little Haleigh Cummings and her family

Apparently there's a lot of speculation going around about this family. The poor beleaguered dad is almost on trial. The poor beleaguered mom isn't helping the situation.

I hope and pray for this young child's sake that this family does all it can to stay together and represent a united front.

By infighting and pointing fingers of past offenses they are only making their suffering worse.

I wish somehow, someone would get this message across to them. .

Geraldo Rivera was issued a no trespassing warrant because he brought up some disgusting stuff with some terribly foul questions. He had the cruelty to pose those questions to the distraught father. That's just wrong. The father hasn't been indicted on any charges and to ask him questions about abuse during his marriage while his little girl is lost well...... Having a bad marriage doesn't make you a murderer. And the mom lost custody. She must've lost custody for a reason. To say there's some bitterness there would probably be an understatement.

This family needs to rise above their petty squabbling and stand together. If and when Haleigh comes back she's going to need BOTH her parents.

Maybe people like Geraldo don't think they are being cruel. Maybe they believe they have the right of free speech to ask any question they'd like.

Well, I submit to you that maybe they do have that right. But it doesn't make the right thing to do.

If these people had just an inkling of the pain that this family is going through they'd shut their foul mouths and wait for the police to do their jobs. They'd stop pointing fingers. They'd help the police. They'd help the family.

I imagine the Cummings family has friends who are helping them. I hope they have a community that is supporting them.

I'm telling you that when someone in your family goes missing, you can't handle any more pain.

Gosh, I'd wish they'd find this poor little girl.

Again, what has the world come to? Why are people hurting our kids? What is it in Florida? Is it Florida? Or is it everywhere and we just get all the bad pub?

Pilar Rodriguez, Carlie Brucia, Jessica Lunsford, Coral Rose Fullwood, Trenton Duckett, Caylee Anthony, Haleigh Cummings.......... And those just off the top of my head.

In more than one of the cases above the public scrutinized the families horribly and were wrong.

Let's look at these cases.

Pilar is still unsolved. They think she was abducted by her babysitter.

Carlie Brucia was abducted by a stranger and murdered. Her mother was pretty much and still is on trial by the community. Last tihing I heard she was drugged out and possibly a hooker or maybe it was a stripper. Who knows if that's correct? Bottom line is the child was taken by a stranger!

Jessica Lunsofrd was abducted by a stranger and murdered. Her dad was suspect in the beginning. Everyone was sure he did it or that the grandparents had been neglectful. People still mention the dad and saying he should'nt have gone out on a date that night and he should've been home. Sheesh.

Coral Rose Fullwood was abducted and murdered by a stranger. Possibly more than one. Immediately the family was put on trial. Reports of child abuse and neglect. The children were taken away from the parents. There were reports of human feces on the walls of their home. The father had child porn on his computer. But! Bottom line it's a stranger who's awaiting trial in jail. No connection to the Fullwood's has been proved.

Trenton Duckett remains unsolved. Her mom was blamed by the public and the press. She was never arrested. But, she committed suicide after Nancy Grace went after her. Trenton is still missing. Gee. So, losing a child and having to deal with the predators of the press can lead to suicide. Who knows? Maybe she was guilty of something. Sadly, because of the press, we'll never know. The police were unable to do their jobs.

Caylee Anthony. Who knows? I can't even begin to write about her case. But the mom's in jail. It took them a long time to get her in jail but she's there. Who knows what went on with the grandparents? Has the press distorted the facts or are the grandparents as whacked out as we've been led to believe?

Which leads us to Haleigh Cummings. And WE DON'T KNOW ANYTHING! IMO it's best to let the police do their jobs. The family IMO should shut up to the press, cooperate with police and stay united. These reports about them pointing fingers and mentioning past transgressions is not good for them and it's not good for Haleigh.

God give them strength and courage. They have a long road ahead of them no matter what's found out.

I continue to keep the entire family (both sides) in my prayers.

added edit: I really need to send a thank you to the press who have handled our case. You truly on the most part have shown compassion towards us and you have helped us. Thank you for that.

Hayleigh Cummings and homicide grief

A little girl has been missing in central Florida for the past few days. It echoes the Jessica Lunsford case.

I have difficulty watching other people's tragedies on the news. I didn't watch hardly any of the Caylee Anthony news coverage. I had a difficult time wrapping my mind around what the young mother Casey Anthony may or may not have done.

It's just since my daughter in law died it's difficult to open myself up to other people's pain.

I feel myself slowly healing though because I'm becoming less self absorbed and more concerned about others now. For the past year it's been all about my daughter in law.

It still is mostly about my daughter in law but I'm able to at least pray now for other people.

It's odd, I have trouble praying for myself and my own family. The prayers are weak. My anger is still strong towards God. I can't understand why these babies have to suffer. And whether they are 3, 5, 7,8, or 9, they are babies. And they are suffering.

I wonder sometimes if the man that killed my daughter in law went after her because she was so tiny and small. Maybe he thought of her as a child. I think of her as a child. She was only 21. To me that's a baby. All my babies are older than she was. And eyewitness who saw the abduction mistook her for a child.

Anyhow, whatever the case. I don't understand why little Jessica Lunsford had to suffer.

Or Coral Rose Fullwood.

I don't get it. I'll never get it. And each time someone goes missing whether it's a child or an adult it just brings back those days when we didn't know where my daughter in law was.

That's why I stayed away from the Caylee Anthony case. She was missing for so long.

I hope they find this little girl soon. And I pray they bring her home safe. God bless her family during this time.