Sunday, March 29, 2009

What a very sweet compliment

"a friend of mine found your blog and directed me to it. i have read over your blogs, and because of you, i am now attempting, for the first time, to articulate what i don't want to talk about."

Bittersweet really. You can find it here: http://survivinghomicide.blogspot.com/

I knew there were others out there like me that feel a need to be heard but simply don't know what to say or how to say it. We do come off as being bitter and angry. I guess that's cuz we are! And we have every right to be.

Dear Crystal, just like you, I don't like to talk about it either. For me, talking about it makes me sick to my stomach. I don't want to burden others but my world revolves around it. I can't run away from it. And if I'm not sick to my stomach, I'm angry as all get out. But also, just like you, I have to get it out.

I hope blogging helps you. It's helped me the short time I've been doing it to find my "new" self. I lost my "old" self the day Denise died. I'm still me but I'm very different. You probably know what I mean.

My heart goes out to you. After reading about your brother and sister in law I feel just so sad that two people who seemed to be such nice, peaceful people were brutally murdered. You gotta wonder why. Why? Just looking at their picture you can see how nice they were.

Same with Denise.

sigh

I'm overwhelmed right now and have to stop. Much much love and peace to you and your family especially your mom. It's hard watching someone else's devastation. We see it in our son. Many many hugs.

Peggy

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