Someone said to me today "you have lost your mind"

I guess I have. At first, I thought this person was kidding. But, no, he was serious. It all goes back to internet forums.

I'm so upset. I'm shaking. I haven't participated a whole lot in the forums. I haven't found much joy in it. But I keep going back hoping somehow to find that chemistry I felt with it before my daughter in law died. So I post an occasional thread about what's going on with my son and the trial and my blogging. But I've had trouble getting involved in the other threads about other stuff.

Yeah, I've lost my mind. Yesterday and today, I visited the forums and tried to participate more. I got involved and even got into some arguments. I asserted my beliefs in what I thought was right and wrong. I felt I had valid points. Some people even agreed with me. But others... told me I lost my mind.

They are angry with me. I don't even know why. I guess I have lost my mind.

I can't stop crying inside.

My whole life is different and topsy turvy. I wonder if I'll ever find myself again. I guess the reality is, I won't. I'll never be my old self again.

But that doesn't mean I lost my mind. That just means I've changed.

It's amazing how one statement can just shatter me. I feel as if I have needles sticking in me but they're on the inside.