Homicide grief and the frustration

What do I find the most frustrating thing about homicide grief? The loss of ever being normal again.

Maybe because it's only been a year, I don't know, but! I feel sometimes as if my family and I will never be normal again.

Sadness and anger. They seem to overwhelm me.

Thank goodness for the grandbabies. They are our joy! But what a burden for them to have to bear.

SIGH.